After a lovely dinner with a good friend, we went back to her place to chat some more.  She brought out her Angel Cards and Fairy Cards in the course of our meandering conversation.

Just for fun, I pulled 3 cards from the Angel deck, or should I say, I pulled 2, and one literally jumped out of the deck and attacked me!  The first card dealt with clairvoyance and not being afraid to employ it, whether the output I receive is dream visions or waking visions.

The second card, the one which insisted on being a part of my reading was simply called “Book”.  This card deals with all things books:  reading, writing, selling, promoting.  The card clearly stated that I had found my true path. 

The final card had to do with the use of crystals to find clarity.

Clear enough, right?  I don’t need a seeing eye dog to get this particular message which also stated, in no uncertain terms, that I should make time every day to pursue my purpose.

As if that wasn’t enough, I was reading my daily horoscope (just for fun as, frankly, sometimes it comes sort of close, but most of the time, it’s way off base!) and what do I see?

“Career options are changing, and you may find that you have strange or
unusual new opportunities that allow you to express your creativity.
Keep an open mind when a really wild idea comes to mind. You may be
looking at a change in careers.”

I’d have to be blind, deaf, dumb and stupid to miss the message the Universe is tossing my way.  In short, if I don’t get off my lazy butt and finish that book, there WILL be consequences, and I will NOT like them!!!

So I’m sitting here thinking: 
“Tomorrow is an action packed and fun-filled day, which isn’t even going to allow time for my gym visit.  That leaves Sunday when I was going to attempt to replace a vanity and fix the hot water pipe thingie, go to the gym, grocery shop and do chores.  Clearly, I’m going to have to give up something!  The way it looks right now, it’s not looking so good for eating or sleeping!”

 Seriously, though, many things are pointing to the expansion of my creative side, these days, and it really does behoove me to start paying better attention, setting goals, seeking guidance wherever it is available, and just finishing what I’ve started! 

I’m seeing more and more synchronicities in my life these days, coming into contact with more people who make me stop and say “aha!” and frankly, getting many more, unexpected opportunities to hone my writing skills.  Sure, tackling the subject at hand has its painful moments, and there are times when I’m not sure just how candid I really want to be, but if I shift my focus to the people who could possibly benefit from that candor, it might open up the floodgates and allow the words to come pouring through.  Just a thought, though.

I once thought to set aside time every day to write, and when I did, a Blog was Born!  How much more effort will it really take before the Blog becomes a book and the book becomes several?  It all really does start with a single step! 

I keep visualizing the culmination of my efforts, as I embark on a book tour to promote my latest accomplishment.  I imagine how I’ll be feeling, how I’ll be looking, who will be with me, and so on….  The only thing missing is putting fingers to keyboard.  Yet, the last time I focused, I managed to pound out about 18,000 words in 3 days! 

I know what I really want is to be able to just get up when I feel like it, sit down at my computer, and not come up for air until I’m good and ready.  But since I do have certain responsibilities, I have to have a plan with which I can have those hours of writing time, albeit in conjunction with an already busy schedule, to just get lost in my story and create!  (as far as the cats are concerned, me at my computer every day doesn’t sound like such a bad thing because I can always be counted on to give absent-minded skritches, fill food bowls and give them lots of attention during my breaks.)

What I lack, my friends, is discipline!  I do great if I set aside a few days to write.  I make sure I have sufficient groceries, lock myself in and just do what I planned.  But enter requirements for going to work, visits to the gym (which I need so let’s not go there!) and of course, getting my dancing fix, my resolution falls apart.  I just don’t seem to be able to set a habit for working on my book every day for a set amount of time! 

What especially frustrates me is that I’ve managed to set far more difficult goals, and have achieved them in stupendous fashion, setting wonderful, new habits with blythe abandon!  Yet, when it comes to setting a habit to fulfill my life’s true purpose, I fall flat on my face! 

I’ve reached the conclusion that there is still some kind of block and until I find that block and remove it, I will continue to struggle with this weighty problem.

But not only will I be focusing on the causes, and remedies for that block or blocks, I will be actively entertaining suggestions from all quarters as to how to identify and eradicate this nasty, skanky, purpose sucking creature!

In a word, H E L P!!!!

My gratitudes tonight are:

1. I am grateful to friends, both old and new, who will help me both to see what is standing in my way and to find a way to clear my path.
2. I am grateful for opportunities to expand my horizons and see things from different angles.
3. I am grateful for an expanding social life (despite the fact that it aids and abets the block to my writing!)
4. I am grateful for more opportunities for creativity.
5. I am grateful for turns in my path which may currently hide where I’m going, but will soon unfold as I make it around the next bend!

Love and light.